Light a match

Apparently I'm a Conservative Democrat. According to the Blogthings test:" Frankly, the way most other Democrats behave embarasses you greatly.You pride yourself on a high level of morals, and you have a good grasp on right and wrong.It's likely you think America needs to get back to its conservative, Juedo-Christian values.Why aren't you a Republican then? Because you believe the goverment helps more than hurts."

Strangely accurate, for once.

So....school! I started school this week, and I'm loving it. This semester is going to be a lot of work, even though I technically only have 3 classes despite the 13 credit hours. My political science class is going to be especially killer, but also completely amazing. My professor is one of those "discussion" professors, where he asks questions to get you thinking, and then guides the discussion so we're learning the material, but kind of teaching ourselves. And with a topic like "international relations" that is kind of exactly what should be happening -- a really good class discussion guided in the right way, so we figure it out ourselves, and develop our own opinions on issues and our own viewpoints, not just spoon-fed Dr. Cooper's ideas. Even the giant textbook is fun to read. I mean seriously, isn't it supposed to be some kind of rule of thumb that textbooks are to be made as boring as humanly possible?? It's a rebel textbook. Maybe International Politics are more interesting than I thought! haha ;-)

Et le classe de francais est tres chouette aussi. Le prof parle en francais tout la fois, mais je comprende tout le chose! If only I could spell, and do accent marks in LJ. Anywho. I decided to take 101 and 102 as accelerated "block" courses as a refresher so that I could remember what the heck it was I learned 5 years ago in high school french. haha Je ne suis pas une pomme de terre!.....ok, peut-etre quelquefois. Mais, on sais, c'est bon. *le giggle*

(Translation: "And my french class is really cool too. My teacher speaks in french all the time, but I understand everything." and then, "I am not a potato!...okay, maybe sometimes. But, you know, that's cool.")

Qu'est-que c'est sur la flip chart?? Qui est Charlie Kroker?... Je t'aime, Eddie!

I don't want to end up just another page or two in your journal. I don't know how to help, or what I could do to make things better here. A lot of guys are reluctant to get in to relationships, even if they do actually really like the girl. Why is that? Is it fear of getting your heart broken? Is it laziness? Is it a sense of "I just don't have enough time"? Is it because of past bad experiences? If you simply want to be dating other people too, then date other people too! If this is going to turn out as a "Oh we hung out sometimes for a few months, but we're just friends" thing in the end, I wish I could just know that right now. If I'm right about you, then everything I am is exactly what you need. I'm not afraid of getting hurt, as long as it's not for some jack(ahem) reason. After all, relationships either end or they last forever. I don't require much time at all. I'm ridiculously different than all your psycho past experiences. If you don't want to talk some days, then that's 100% fine with me, I always have other things to do too and I need my own space too. You need to focus on school.. Well news flash, Walter Cronkite, so do I! We're in the same boat here, except that I'm not standing there with my fingers in my ears and my eyes closed going "LALALALALALA". It's going to turn out to be such a waste if you don't see that. Then again, maybe I'm completely wrong about you, and you'll turn out to be a rooster-teeth.

A lot of guys are reluctant to get into relationships in general. But for most of those guys, they get over it when they meet a girl they find to be worth jumping for anyway. Maybe I'm just not that girl for you. In the meantime, I'm sick of waiting around for you to decide whether or not you care enough about me to try to keep me.

p.s. I just found out that there's a big campaign going on right now to get the Kazoo dubbed as our National Instrument.


mission accomplished
do you feel regret breathing down your neck?
broken friendships in progress
do you ever wonder why your soul is ending?

light a match
use it to find your way through the dark

when the sun goes down emotions all come out, yeah
and your sapphire eyes keep staring at the glow
you're burning all your bridges down
you're burning all your bridges down

the future is pending
are you sending angels out or demons instead?
what goes around comes around
will you cross the lakes and rivers
that surround you?

light a match
use it to find your way in the dark..