Firewall on the heart

This post is just for you, Jenna. Really. (just kidding. hehe)

Does anyone know if Microsoft can program a firewall for your heart, so the bad stuff can't get in? Wait, Microsoft sucks. It better be something else. Matt would say Linux. There, just for you, Matty.

This is another one of my bipolar days. I'm pissed off, and I'm sad. I'm seriously debating whether or not to rant, leave some cryptic (or not so cryptic) song lyrics/(not so)original poetry, lie about what a great week it's been, say how excited I am to not be dressing up tomorrow night (sarcasm) or just to not write about anything at all.

I'll go for door # 2.....

I remember when I was in third or fourth grade, my class went to the library one day to learn about the Dewey Decimal System. The librarian took advantage of the time she had to read us a book. We were still at the age that if someone read a book out loud, it was a very short book, usually read after the sun went down. So about halfway through the book, I got bored and stopped listening. Especially when this old lady started crying for absolutely no apparent reason.
And then a little while ago, I came across the book again. I wanted to have a copy, but since I'm cheap and poor, I found it on the internet instead. No cute pictures, but the words are still the same. I read it again tonight. It is so much different now. The words mean something totally new. Perhaps it's simply because I understand them a little better. I have felt what it describes, I've been through what it talks about. In another ten years, I know I'll feel the story even deeper than I do now.

http://www.mit.edu/people/adorai/seuss/seussboy.html

I'm so scared and excited for my friends that are going off to college in the fall. I'm scared that they'll play Humpty Dumpty, because the wall you sit on while you're in high school can be quite high indeed, and can have quite a devastating fall. I'm excited because they'll be climbing their own mountains. They'll surpass their wildest dreams. And if they don't (for sometimes you won't) then that's okay too, because life isn't about doing great things, or creating great masterpieces, or changing the world.. It's about simply doing things. It's about creating, no matter how great or small the masterpiece. You live, you learn, you love, you fall, and you get back up again, and it doesn't matter if your heart is broken.. or if your plans for you don't turn out the way you wanted. "Flowers fade, the fruits of summer fade" but they give way to bright, beautiful colors of Autumn. Yes, you have to endure several weeks of gross and gloomy weather in the meantime, but so what? If there's one thing that's constant, it's that time will always keep moving. God stays in control of things, whether you like it that way or not.

So bring me that horizon. Bring me that mountain. Or whatever.


And I miss Kris and Bee. :(