What a conundrum
So, I haven't really updated since it turned March. I can't believe it's actually March. How did that happen?? My birthday is in 10 days. Ryan is coming in 23 days. I have 5 1/2 weeks of class left, and then finals, then I go home for the whole summer. YAY. Okay, so on to business.
Observations:
-I am actually in fact slightly to moderately antisocial, but not in a bad "i hate people" kind of way.
-Gaining weight when I'm trying to lose weight is somewhat inevitable
-My appetite goes on vacation during season changes. ie, it's turning into Spring, so my appetite has packed and gone to Cancun for a week or two..
-Time does in fact pass, no matter what. And although the little choices you make in the meantime do matter somewhat, in reality daily crap really doesn't matter one single bit. What's the use in getting all huffed up about stuff?
-The main reason I'm doing so badly this semester is because I'm around people too much. I need to spend more time alone.
Extended version of last observation:
-When I was at home during high school, I was almost always alone. I didn't really get to see other people my age very much, because I was a dufus with no car or social life. lol but anyway, I did really well in that situation. I got things done. I could concentrate for long enough to be useful to myself. I didn't have to deal with anybody else's crap unless I wanted to (usually). Here at college, however, I'm CONSTANTLY with people. Even when I'm on campus in the library somewhere, I always see somebody I know. And if I'm not with somebody I know, then I'm always looking for someone. When I'm at home, then I'm always expecting Katie to come home (if she's not home) or she'll be sleeping or wanting to hang out. Then there are the other 4 of us, (Emily, Tessa, Quinky, Laura) that I always want to hang out with. Granted, Laura's going home on Tuesday so that "takes care" of that. I need to be alone. I need to have somewhere I can go easily where I can completely isolate myself.
Possible solution to problem:
-Move into Laura's empty room when she leaves, for the rest of the semester.
Problems with above solution:
-Katie.
-Katie.
-Katie.
Possible outcomes:
-Katie would get very bitter, and possibly get either:
a) more depressed, or
b) more distant towards me.
Neither of which are desirable in the least.
Question:
So, what should I do? What's best for me is to move out. But I'm not the only one in the equation. I know the obvious answer is the whole "self-preservation first" thing, but... It's not quite that simple with my roommate. The situation is...delicate.
Oh goodness. What to do, what to do... I hate this, really.
In other news!.... I can't wait for Ryan to get out here. I miss him so much. And I'm coming down with a cold. Woot.
Observations:
-I am actually in fact slightly to moderately antisocial, but not in a bad "i hate people" kind of way.
-Gaining weight when I'm trying to lose weight is somewhat inevitable
-My appetite goes on vacation during season changes. ie, it's turning into Spring, so my appetite has packed and gone to Cancun for a week or two..
-Time does in fact pass, no matter what. And although the little choices you make in the meantime do matter somewhat, in reality daily crap really doesn't matter one single bit. What's the use in getting all huffed up about stuff?
-The main reason I'm doing so badly this semester is because I'm around people too much. I need to spend more time alone.
Extended version of last observation:
-When I was at home during high school, I was almost always alone. I didn't really get to see other people my age very much, because I was a dufus with no car or social life. lol but anyway, I did really well in that situation. I got things done. I could concentrate for long enough to be useful to myself. I didn't have to deal with anybody else's crap unless I wanted to (usually). Here at college, however, I'm CONSTANTLY with people. Even when I'm on campus in the library somewhere, I always see somebody I know. And if I'm not with somebody I know, then I'm always looking for someone. When I'm at home, then I'm always expecting Katie to come home (if she's not home) or she'll be sleeping or wanting to hang out. Then there are the other 4 of us, (Emily, Tessa, Quinky, Laura) that I always want to hang out with. Granted, Laura's going home on Tuesday so that "takes care" of that. I need to be alone. I need to have somewhere I can go easily where I can completely isolate myself.
Possible solution to problem:
-Move into Laura's empty room when she leaves, for the rest of the semester.
Problems with above solution:
-Katie.
-Katie.
-Katie.
Possible outcomes:
-Katie would get very bitter, and possibly get either:
a) more depressed, or
b) more distant towards me.
Neither of which are desirable in the least.
Question:
So, what should I do? What's best for me is to move out. But I'm not the only one in the equation. I know the obvious answer is the whole "self-preservation first" thing, but... It's not quite that simple with my roommate. The situation is...delicate.
Oh goodness. What to do, what to do... I hate this, really.
In other news!.... I can't wait for Ryan to get out here. I miss him so much. And I'm coming down with a cold. Woot.
posted by HollyAnn at 12:19 AM
1 Comments:
Possible Solution:
Plan some cool activities for the weekend, and don't do anything accept school and homework on the weekdays. That does suck, but homework was never intended for weekends. You should also come hang out with me and your sister. That would be cool too.
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