Your brain gets smart but your head gets dumb

And after a while you learn
that you're not like everyone else, and never will be. and that boys will never grow out of cat-calling repectable girls, making them feel like absolute dirt. and that everything you've thought for a long time could have always been a misconception, from stolen forks to ice cream fights and beyond. And you learn to try to not be depressed when you see that friend of yours smoking, and the next day look into the face of an old woman or man who has lung cancer, from smoking. and that you are called "uptight" for having values, and actually sticking to them (what a novel idea). and only those who you are born to, born with, live with, are the ones who will stay. And you learn that the mindless haze is easier, but that you don't know how to learn to shut off your emotions to become numb, cold, detached like all the rest.

And then, suddenly, you learn that all you've learned can be forgotten with a smile from a stranger, or a bunny in the front yard, or that perfectly blue sky that fills you up like ice-cold water on a hot summer day.


And that Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince is freakin awesome!.....and, SO FRUSTRATING!!! aaaaarrrggggg! if you've read it, you know what i mean. :-p :-D hehe..